Dear 15 Year old Portia,
Its me, or i guess you, 15 years in the future. And I'm writing to you today, because I know your going through a rough patch in your life... I'm going to be 200% honest and say that this is not the worst its gonna get. But just know that after every storm comes a rainbow, so its not going to stay like this forever. The truth is you will have good days and bad days. Maybe even days that went so bad, that you are one tear drop away from just quitting everything and your gonna stop and think 'Why Am I Even Doing This' or 'I Can't Continue Doing This Anymore'. During those days, don't just quit because I promise you will regret it later, and also feel 10 times worse then you felt before. You have to tell yourself 'I'm Doing This Because I Once Believed In Myself' or 'I Can't Quit Because I Never Know If Tomorrow Is The Day Every Thing Falls In To Place'.
Porsh, your still learning, and I want you to grab on to God's will. I know you think he is punishing you for something you don't understand, but follow him because God is leading you down a path that you may not have expected. You will lose your way once or twice, but if you get so lost and can't find your way anymore, don't follow someone else's path. Because you know that it wasn't made for you.
I want to apologize for your 14th birthday, because i know all you wanted was someone to say sorry about how that turned out. This might sound nearly impossible, but you HAVE to learn to let go of the past. You can't have a better tomorrow if you're still thinking about yesterday. Its easy for us to forgive, too easy, but its always been a struggle trying to forget people who done you wrong.
To sum all that up, just live your own life and do worry, because in 2030, everything will turn out how its suppose to be.